Joy in 2019

I have some goals for 2019.  I'd like to go on three trips.  I'd like to reach my goal weight by June 1.  I'd like to develop a closer relationship with God.  I'd like to heal from the inside out.  I'd like to set boundaries and be confident. 
Objectives:
1. Plan and Go!
2. exercise smartly, serious tracking, try Holy Mess
3.  Attend church weekly
4. Work on healing and spiritual challenges
5.  Set boundaries and do not react to others opinions.

Change One thing

If I could change one this that happened this year it would be that my daughter didn't have to suffer like she did this summer.  She had a horrible year, but especially a difficult summer.  Between the burns and the foot surgery she truly suffered.  If I could change anything it would be to say no to that surgery (I don't think the benefits were worth it) and I would have not let her make that ram an noodles.  Those two events were horrifying. 

World Goals

List of things I would like to see in the world:
1. Way less judgement in the way women look.
2. Less propaganda in the media
3. More acceptance with different ideas
4. More reasonable thinking
5.  Less domestic animal breeding for the hell of it.

Count your Blessings

1. country- best one in the world
2. home- I love it here
3. husband- we are meant to be together
4. children- both biological and step
5. grandchildren- those that are lost, those that are here, and those that are yet to come
6. weather- cold, but not too bad
7. pets- all are rescue, all are lucky to be here
8. food network
9. health
10. chiefs are in the playoffs
11. christmas will soon be over- getting pretty tempting in here
12.  naps
13. pjs
14. central heat and air
15. modern technology
16. Most importantly- Jesus- his birthday is soon which marks when he came to earth to teach us the word and to save us from our sins.

Most Proud of this year

The thing I am most proud of this year would be the weight loss.  I wish it had been more, like 50, but so far it has been 38.  And this Christmas season has been rough.  There are cookies everywhere!  But the 38 feels pretty amazing.  I am wearing three sizes smaller.  I feel a whole lot better.  I have been working on my health as a whole.  I feel like I know myself a lot better.  Spiritually as well as mentally.  I have had everything medically examined.  That's a relief.  I have worked hard and suffered a lot.  My goal for December was to just get through it without gaining and to enjoy it.  To actually enjoy it.  I did a lot of enjoying and not working.  I  mean I worked, but the Christmas activities weren't work.  They were enjoyed.  Today I wrapped presents with the help of my daughters.  Usually I have them wrapped a couple of weeks ago.  This year, I was too busy looking at lights, drinking cocoa and watching movies.  I have relaxed.  Last weekend we had a cookie extravaganza and I have been having a hard time staying out of them.  When I want one (some) I will either eat one and then a salad; or I will put one in a bowl along with some fruit, almonds, and cheese.  Or I just eat a handful and feel bad about it after.  I've only done that once.  I could do it a hundred times.  Come Wednesday, it is back to serious tracking and restricting.  I have kept up with my workouts.  That hasn't been a problem. 

Transformation

These two pictures are 10 months apart and 38 pounds difference.  It is 4 days till Christmas and all I want to do is cheat.  I need to look at these pictures.

What's in the bag?

So.  What is in my purse?
sunglasses
wallet
midol
checkbook
God with Us booklet
acetaminophen
coin purse
receipts (3)
football card
gift cards (3)
honey lip butter made from goat milk
4 pens


Exciting stuff, man.