What do I want

What do I want with this whole diet thing, anyway?  What I want is to be free.  I want to be free of excess weight and baggage.  I want to be free of judgement.  I want to be free of being pulled down.  However, I also want to be free of restrictions, of planning, and of sacrifice.  I want to do what I want to do.  I want to be free of feeling like I need to eat and just eat when I am hungry. I want to be free of all of the emotional pull.  I want to be free of the need for dieting, the dieting, and the end result.  I want to be free of it all.