Overcommitment

"What are you over committing yourself that isn't serving you anymore?"  I have been on a weight program for about 2 years.  For the first year I lost almost 40 pounds.  For the second, I have gained 12.  I feel like the program is no longer serving and I need to do something different.  I feel more and more guilty and hate it constantly.  I would like some freedom.  If only that freedom didn't come with weight gain.  With this whole stay at home thing, I think I will practice more freedoms but need to start controlling myself without someone else making those decisions for me.  That is the new practice.  At least for awhile.