Overcommitment

"What are you over committing yourself that isn't serving you anymore?"  I have been on a weight program for about 2 years.  For the first year I lost almost 40 pounds.  For the second, I have gained 12.  I feel like the program is no longer serving and I need to do something different.  I feel more and more guilty and hate it constantly.  I would like some freedom.  If only that freedom didn't come with weight gain.  With this whole stay at home thing, I think I will practice more freedoms but need to start controlling myself without someone else making those decisions for me.  That is the new practice.  At least for awhile. 

Choices and Sacrifices.

Where can you accept sacrificing for what you want and where can you not?  Right now is a weird time.  I don't usually want to do anything much, but having the choice taken away I do not like.  I also do not like that I want to eat a lot and am having difficulty seeing why I shouldn't.  No one is going to see me anyway.  But.  Maybe weightloss and health shouldn't be about others seeing me.  It should be about me.  My health.  What I see and feel.  I have been others in the driver's seat too long.  I have a choice and I am giving it away and then having the nerve to complain about not having choices to make.  I have choices and always have.  I need to make the ones that will lead me to happiness.

Another day of Clarity

"What is dimming your soul right now?"  Well I gotta say it is fear.  I am far more afraid of the side effects of the virus than I am of the virus.  The panic will cause far more damage than the virus ever could.  I fear we are giving too much power to the government in order to keep us safe.  All of the guidelines sound awful familiar.  I fear the economy crashing.  I fear the lack of education that the children will be receiving.  I fear that the media has been lying to us for so long that we can no longer trust them therefore putting our very lives at risk.  This whole thing was created.  It's not a "thing" that just happened.  My soul is very dim.  

Clarity

"How do you know when you are connected to your soul?"  I am always connected to my soul.  My soul is me.  I am my soul.  This is no mystery.  I am who I am. 

Old is gone

"So look upon your old sin nature as dead and unresponsive to sin, and instead be alive to God, alert to him, through Jesus Christ our Lord." Romans 6:11

anger

"A wise man controls his temper.  he knows that anger causes mistakes."  Proverbs 14:29

Real Love

"In this act we see what real love is: it is not our love for God but his love for us when he sent his Son to satisfy God's anger against our sins." 1 Johm 4:10

Live again

"Yet, even though Christ lives within you, your body will die because of sin; but your spirit will live, for Christ has pardoned it.  And if the Spirit of God, who raised up Jesus from the dead, lives in you, he will make your dying bodies live again after you die, by means of this same Holy Spirit living within you. 

Paid

"God paid a ransom to save you from the impossible road to heaven which your fathers tried to take, and the ransom he paid was not mere gold or silver as you very well know.  But he paid for you with the precious lifeblood of Christ, the sinless, spotless Lamb of God." 1 Peter 1:18-19

not good enough

"then he saved us- not because we were good enough to be saved but because of his kindness and pity- by washing away our sins and giving us the new joy of the indwelling Holy Spirit," Titus 3:5

Boast

"It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God-that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption.  Therefore, as it is written: Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord."  I Corinthians 1:30-31

Hebrews

"Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might break the power of him who holds the power of death-that is, the devil- and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death." Hebrews 2:14-15

romans

"Blessed are those whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered.  Blessed is the one whose sin the Lord will never count against them."  Romans 4:7-8

Colossians

"When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your flesh, God mad you alive with Christ.  He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the charge of our legal indebtedness, which stood against us and condemned us; he has taken it away, nailing it to the cross."  Colossians 2:13-14