10 Big things I am thankful for.
1. That even though I canceled thanksgiving, no one had a fit.
2. That I live in a country that has elections.
3. That I had enough money to donate to charities for Giving Tuesday
4. That I have not gotten COVID.
5. That I was able to buy toilet paper yesterday
6. That the weather is still nice.
7. That I lost 1.5lb last week instead of gaining.
8. That I am free
9. That Charlie Brown is on PBS
10. That my husband recovered.
Dear Beckie: I am thankful for you. You are courageous. You are unique. you are amazing. You are worth it. I am grateful I am: smart, funny ( I think I am), and confidant.
Three things I have accomplished lately:
1. kept off 20 pounds
2. finished book room
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Three things I love about me:
1. I think I'm funny
2. smart
3. nice rack
So my word of the year is Peace. God has a sense of humor. At first I thought having peace during a mandatory shut down would be easy. A blessing! I underestimated living with extroverts with a high sense of drama in a pandemic. Then when things started to lighten up the world decided we needed to worry about racism, rioting, politics, really strange weather, a depression, money and just about anything a reporter can think of. All things that need attention. Just not all at once. My granddaughter had an illness that was never really diagnosed and stopped breathing. She was put on a respirator and was in ICU for several days. Peace has been hard to come by. I have had to dig down deep. I have had to restrict my internet and news time. I have needed to demand space from my husband and daughter (the extroverts I was talking about). Mediation. Continued exercise. Reading. aaauuuhh!
What has happened to me in 2020? Well, personally, not a lot. The big COVID this didn't effect me much personally. My job kept going. The biggest part was I did homeschooling in the spring. Which was actually kinda fun. The silver lining would be that I didn't have to go anywhere for a while. I have learned about myself and others? Myself: I would like more down time. I feel like I missed out on a perfectly good shut down. Others: Americans don't handle change well. Especially the people I live with. Most proud of: Well, I don't know. I haven't done anything especially prideful.
If leaves change color and fall to signal the end of the year, what "grand finale" would I like to see in myself that is similar? I would love to put down the weight. To let it fall. I don't want to carry it around any more. It is heavy and I am tired. I don't want it anymore. I want it to fall and to have a time of down. Then blossoms. Any color. Just blossom.
During stressful times I will emotional eat. I eat to relieve the pressure, to relax, and to liven things up. There isn't much that food can't fix. Emotionally. Outside of the emotions and keeping me alive it doesn't fix much else. Texture tends to be important. Crunchy during need for relaxing, sweets and soft during need to destress and savory during boredom.
1. Pause: Think am I actually hungry?
2. Say the Lord's Prayer
3. Try a distraction. Try a small portion. NEVER keep anything good in the house that isn't in a small portion.
