Day 10 Magic

 List of Spiritual self care ideas to do over October

1.  Daily bible devotional

2.  walk during afternoon break to connect to nature and not computer

3.  Write in journal after work 2 days a week.

Day 4 Magic: Future

 In the future I am still here and I'm with the people I am with now.  I am fine with most of that.  I am wearing a smaller size; I am drinking and eating smaller quantities.  I am settled and calm.  I am happy.  

Chaos: day 3

 1. First thing in morning

2. when trying to work out and someone is home

3. whenever husband is around

Set boundaries, work out when everyone is at work or school (though usually I am at work), I don't know what to do about the husband. Maybe that's where I need to let go of control.  

Day 2 Magic

Boundaries 

Inner Circle:  my own health, my own sanity, my independence and control

Outer circle:  others having control of me, serving others at my expense, too much drama

Day One Magic

 Barriers:

Time:  Schedule

Energy:  Do first?

Other people's demands: Tell them to shove it

Remembering: Keep on calendar

Lady Maybe

 "Lady Maybe" is the 2015 novel by Julie Klassen.  In this book Hannah Rogers is the ladies companion of 1819 Lady, Marianna of Bath, England.  Marianna is a loose cannon...so to speak.  She's been having an affair on her husband, Sir John and making life a living hell for all.  Sir John keeps moving and changing environments in hopes of reigning his wayward wife in to no avail.  On his latest maneuver, there is a carriage accident and suddenly the situation finally turns.  

This book is a pretty classic love triangle.  Though I'm not sure either man was worthy.  Both seemed to just want to own her, not actually be with her.  Both were forward and abusive.  If it were 2021 she would definitely have a civil suit if not an actual criminal case.  I didn't really like this one.  I kept wishing she would just take the money and run.  However, it was 1819 and women didn't have  a lot of options. 

Blessed, Blessed....Blessed review

 In 2017 I received the e-book, "Blessed, Blessed.....Blessed" by Missy Robertson.  I knew instantly it wasn't a book I would be able to read.  Missy's daughter, Mia, was born with a cleft palate and lip.  She had medical special needs.  My daughter also has medical special needs.  Her name is Sarah, and she has hypoplastic left heart.  She only has half of a heart.  

This year when I went to get my COVID vaccine, I knew I would need a book because I needed to wait at least 20 minutes after getting the shot before I could leave.  So I took the kindle and for some reason decided that in a room full of people, this was the book I should read.  I had to start and stop several times.  It is an honest, gut wrenching, emotional, difficult read.  It is amazing. I have read several Robertson books, not all, but many.  This is by far the best one.  This is a book you should read.  This is an important book.