Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
John 8:32
Thursday, February 27, 2020
Wednesday, February 26, 2020
Ash Wednesday
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whosoever believes in him shall not perish but have ever lasting life.
John 3:16
John 3:16
Tuesday, February 11, 2020
Mary Higgins Clark
Almost 2 weeks ago the world lost one of the greatest writers: Mary Higgins Clark. She wasn't the most brilliant writer in the world. If you read her mysteries too close together you would figure out the killer too quick. But she was captivating. She was one of the most captivating writers to ever write. She drew suspense out of each page. She was just simply the best.
When I was about 12ish or so I was in my aunt's bedroom. She was just out of high school and still lived "at home". I was looking through her books which consisted of primarily Harlequin Romance paperbacks. Dozens of them. When there wasn't a Harlequin, there was a Jackie Collins. I have never cared too much for romances, though I gotta admit a good Jackie Collins is divine. When suddenly I came across "Where are the Children?" I started to read and was immediately enthralled. Who was this author? I needed more! My aunt also had "A Stranger is Watching" and then "Stillwatch". I knew I had found my author. About once a year she would publish a book. I would then read this book. It went on for decades. Each year, gotta read the newest Mary Higgins Clark. I also read her autobiography. Getting to know the story behind the strong, smart, sleuthing heroines was such an eyeopener.
I have felt bad when celebrities died before. I might even watch the movie or listen to the songs a few times afterwards just to pay homage. But I don't think I especially cared. Not really. Not as if it were a person I knew. I cried instantly when I read that she had died. I didn't just feel bad that there would never be anymore books (though I do terribly), I felt sorrow that the world no longer had Mary Higgins Clark in it. I felt as if I had lost a mother figure. This woman poured her words into my head every year. Teaching me to be a lady while not lettering her fear keep her from finding the bad guy. It was the thing I looked forward to every year. Like Christmas. I will miss the woman with accessory skills and pumps who was always making her way in the world alone and either fighting for her life, solving a murder, or just saving the world in general. Ms Clark will be deeply missed.
When I was about 12ish or so I was in my aunt's bedroom. She was just out of high school and still lived "at home". I was looking through her books which consisted of primarily Harlequin Romance paperbacks. Dozens of them. When there wasn't a Harlequin, there was a Jackie Collins. I have never cared too much for romances, though I gotta admit a good Jackie Collins is divine. When suddenly I came across "Where are the Children?" I started to read and was immediately enthralled. Who was this author? I needed more! My aunt also had "A Stranger is Watching" and then "Stillwatch". I knew I had found my author. About once a year she would publish a book. I would then read this book. It went on for decades. Each year, gotta read the newest Mary Higgins Clark. I also read her autobiography. Getting to know the story behind the strong, smart, sleuthing heroines was such an eyeopener.
I have felt bad when celebrities died before. I might even watch the movie or listen to the songs a few times afterwards just to pay homage. But I don't think I especially cared. Not really. Not as if it were a person I knew. I cried instantly when I read that she had died. I didn't just feel bad that there would never be anymore books (though I do terribly), I felt sorrow that the world no longer had Mary Higgins Clark in it. I felt as if I had lost a mother figure. This woman poured her words into my head every year. Teaching me to be a lady while not lettering her fear keep her from finding the bad guy. It was the thing I looked forward to every year. Like Christmas. I will miss the woman with accessory skills and pumps who was always making her way in the world alone and either fighting for her life, solving a murder, or just saving the world in general. Ms Clark will be deeply missed.
Monday, February 10, 2020
Self Love challenges
This week I will begin 2 self love challenges. Not because I am feeling less self love that usual, but because Valentine's Day is at the end of the week it is apparently all of the rage in the area of influencers that I follow. The first is Faithful Workouts and the other is Amanda Silvas.
Because I love myself I will drink 60 oz of water a day.
Because I love myself I will meditate on peace 3 minutes a day.
Because I love myself I will exercise 5 days a week.
What people come to mind when I think of "what will they think?" First hand would be my mother. Then my mother-in-law. Those mom's you know. Mostly because they have judged me with abandon. Throughout my knowing of them both. Be it good or bad.
Five things I want to step into that are me: become stronger physically, find peace, be hydrated, read more, freedom of judgement both for me and to me.
Because I love myself I will drink 60 oz of water a day.
Because I love myself I will meditate on peace 3 minutes a day.
Because I love myself I will exercise 5 days a week.
What people come to mind when I think of "what will they think?" First hand would be my mother. Then my mother-in-law. Those mom's you know. Mostly because they have judged me with abandon. Throughout my knowing of them both. Be it good or bad.
Five things I want to step into that are me: become stronger physically, find peace, be hydrated, read more, freedom of judgement both for me and to me.
Saturday, January 11, 2020
Emotional Eating
Share about the last time I was tempted to emotionally eat. Well, that would be everyday. Everyday. It is my addiction. My alcohol. My nail biting. My whatever. It is what I do. It makes me sad to think that it is killing me. That one day what I do to get through each day will eventually take away my life. Then all of those days won't matter anyway.
Friday, January 10, 2020
Gratitude Post
1. baby sleeping in the bedroom
2. time for exercise
3. I didn't get the sickness everyone else has
4. husband is working
5. daughter is feeling better
6. got grocery shopping done before storm hits
7. Zac is coming back to work
8. Expo is in California
9. modern technology
10. I live in the US
2. time for exercise
3. I didn't get the sickness everyone else has
4. husband is working
5. daughter is feeling better
6. got grocery shopping done before storm hits
7. Zac is coming back to work
8. Expo is in California
9. modern technology
10. I live in the US
Thursday, January 9, 2020
2019-2020
Accomplishments from 2019:
1. Took a vacation to California and didn't lose my shit.
2. Saw Hamilton in KC!
3. Only gained 10 lbs even though I cheated a lot
4. Kept regular exercise
5. Assisted in our business reaching financial goal.
Goals for 2020
1. Lose the 10 pounds I gained by Spring Break
2. Reach goal weight by end of the year
3. Be at Peace with myself in my world
4. Make my mediation practice more regular
5. See my grandparents more
Activities that will achieve Goals
1. Learn more about my spirituality
2. Read more
3. Be honest with food and everything else. It is what it is.
4. Spend more time on/in the water
5. Spend at least one day a month with Grandparent
1. Took a vacation to California and didn't lose my shit.
2. Saw Hamilton in KC!
3. Only gained 10 lbs even though I cheated a lot
4. Kept regular exercise
5. Assisted in our business reaching financial goal.
Goals for 2020
1. Lose the 10 pounds I gained by Spring Break
2. Reach goal weight by end of the year
3. Be at Peace with myself in my world
4. Make my mediation practice more regular
5. See my grandparents more
Activities that will achieve Goals
1. Learn more about my spirituality
2. Read more
3. Be honest with food and everything else. It is what it is.
4. Spend more time on/in the water
5. Spend at least one day a month with Grandparent
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