Work Satisfaction

How am I satisfied with my work this year?  I really don't have too much control over my work.  I work for someone else.  I just do it.  My husband is my boss and he is extremely controlling.  Taking initiative is not rewarded.  He prefers to control every key stroke.  That usually means there is little work done when he is not there.  I need to relax when ever I get the chance.  I don't really make any decisions or anything, so I would say I am not satisfied with my work. 
Maybe I need to develop some sort of hobby that would classify as work and focus on that.  I should have some achievements of my own. 

Self-love

Next year's self-love practice.......hmmmm.  2018 I practiced it in abundance.  2019 not so much.  It seems a little over done.  I little froo-froo.  This year I will practice a little something every day.  Not over-the-top, just a little reminder that I am important too. 

Self Relations

What kind of relationship did I have with myself this past year?  Well, I think I took myself for granted.  I didn't value myself and in return no one else did either.  I put myself on the back burner through out most of the year and worried a lot about other people and things that weren't my business.  I worried about things I had no control over.  I should have not worried at all and just managed the things that were in my power to make my health better.  This year I am going to work on that.  Twice lately I have had customers state that I was either not treated well or I was having too many demands put on me.  Both are true and are things that I have allowed and honestly, probably attracted.  I have been conditioned to believe that I have no worth if I don't overachieve my value.  My worth is in abundance and I should not be overdoing to benefit someone else to no benefit to myself and no appreciation to the manipulator in charge.  I am in charge and this year I am going to live like a woman who knows her worth!

How to have a positive mindset?

How will I have a positive mindset for 2020?  Who knows.  I am reading Battlefield of the  Mind.  I think if I can incorporate that book into my life I will achieve the mindset that I seek.  I dropped a lot of things I learned last year because I either thought it was stupid, it was too time consuming, or I just plain forgot about it.  I have learned I need something to keep on top of my mental stability.  I am trying to have a judge free lifestyle.  "You aren't allowed to judge me!" Favorite line from Why Women Kill.  That's what I want.  No judgment for me. No judgment by me.  Though I hate it for myself, I dish it out like nobody's business.  I am going to practice that as well as return to learning how to better myself.  Jo March style. 

Worry Wort

Last year I spent a lot of time worrying about things that weren't mine to worry about or things I could do nothing about.  Was my kid going to keep her baby?  Would she dump the guy she was with?  Where would she live?  Was my son safe in Kuwait?  Was my other son going to be able to keep what he had worked for when he spontaneously decided to join the army.  Was my granddaughter going to be healthy?  Were my grandfathers' suffering?  How is my grandmothers' doing?  Were they being treated ok by their children?  Will I ever lose weight?  Do I want to?  Will my mother-in-law invite herself on our vacation?  These are all things I worried about all 2019.  Now the answers are:  my daughter kept her baby, she is living in a rental, yes she dumped the guy, son is back safe and sound, other son quit the army caused havoc but is fine, granddaughter has one working kidney, grandfather died no more suffering, grandmothers are doing as expected, didn't lose weight, yes I want to, am working toward that. 
Worried all year for nothing.

Mindset

What was my mindset for 2019?  I should probably say it was all over the place.  I had no mindset.  It was incredibly hectic and scattered.  I didn't really like 2019 much.  2018 I was so focused on my health and I made a lot of progress.  2019 I was bored of myself and my surroundings were a mess.  I focused on them.  Their problems should have been their problems.  I need to keep my health in line.  Without it I have nothing.  2020 the focus will be mental health with a minor in weight.

What self care practices make me feel better?

I like exercising outdoors.  I like how I am getting the sunlight and exposure to green while I am working my body.  I also like doing hygge.  Being cozy eases stress.  I also like listening to music to calm down.  Anything that eases the stress is what I need more of.